A Mystery

I know I write a lot about family and I think I do because it is a mystery to me.  All the things I read, see on tv, the traditional notions of family don't apply to my experience.

And yet they do.

There is the n'er do well  sibling who always needs help, seems to never be responsible for his situation and makes you feel guilty for creating a good life for youself.

There's the mom that no matter what mistakes she made, you love her and can't imagine your life without her.

There's the adopted mom, who is always there quietly as a support. And when the phone rings to tell you she is in the hospital- your heart simultaneously races and stops.

There's the absentee father.

There's the daddy who lets you still be his little girl even in your 30s.

I guess all families are the same in that they are all different.

Parenting

I just read how a man decapitated his 7 year old disabled son

I remember vividly the couple who tortured and killed their daughter by putting her head in a vice

I have friends who spend every dollar, every minute, every wish praying to have a child and yet these monsters don't give any thought to it, are able to have kids and then butcher them.

I am not for government being involved in everything but for pete's sake I think we have a lot of evidence supporting the fact that not everyone should be a parent.

And I am terrified of being a parent. I can't imagine a more awesome and intimidating responsibility. I fear that I will make mistakes that will emotionally scar them for life.
I fear I will make the mistakes my parents made.

Why do so many people not stop and THINK before having a child!?!?!?!?

Origins

Do trees grow without roots?

Do birds learn to fly before they learn to walk?

Where do abandoned animals go for shelter?

Where do you turn when you are in trouble?

Can you really create your own truth? your own family?